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Monday, November 22, 2010Kkays backbackback....(22/11)
DearDiary,
On the 20thNovember,wasnt a gd day at all. Quarrelled wif parents then Baby.
Went to meet baby altho father dont allow. Eh i miss him lehh! Gt wrong marr.
Just bout 3 hours or less. Oso cant!! Fk it mans!!!!
Anyways,cos of tat,quarrelled wif Baby.
At 1st was walking home then show him attitude. Seriously dk why.
Then below my block quarrel wif him. My fking attitude caused both of us in tears!
Hais. Till today(22/11) i still feel vry bad tat i show him tat attitude.
Till today,i still cry bout wht happened! I noe no matter how many sorry i say,will nt take away the pain tat we felt tat day! Im sorry Baby.
I keep asking myself.
Why did i give him tat attitude.
Why did i do those things to him.
Why i said all those hurtful words to him!
Why! Why! Why??!!!
He forgive me. Yesh he does. & he still tinks tat i relationship getting better.
Wht a gd BF he is. But i still feel damn bad.
He has been giving in to all my pekchek-ness. & yet i did tis to him!
WHY! I love him alot. But i did tat! Isnt tat just fking shyt of me.
Why cant i just be tat girl he met 6 months ago! W/out all this fked up attitude of mine!
Cos i changed? Then why cant i change back! Everyone wants the old Michelle back!
Even me want old me back! But it seems so hard!!
Yet Baby still stand beside me no matter wht. He has been the best BF i have ever had.
Altho he did hurting stuff to me last time,i still tink he's the best.
I seriously love him. & no one can imagine the love i have for him.
Cos of him,tears can go down everyday. Cos of him,im willing to do anything & everything!
I thank Baby for whtever he did to me. Bad or good,i still thank him.
He taught me alot. He gave me alot. Giving in and giving things to me.
Nth is gonna change my love for him
I remember we singing the song"Nth's gonna change my love for you" to each other on the MRT!
Which made me almost cry!
I oso remember the words he said" Why cant i just have one peaceful day wif you!"
Those words run in my mind everyday. Ever since he said tat to me on 20112010.
Im gonna give him tat peaceful day! Not only once but alot more!
Baby brings me tears. Both good and bad tears.
Happy and sad ones! I dont blame him for giving me the sad ones.
Cos then only i learn and grow tat not all of the things in the world can give u wht u want.
Thru these tears,i love Baby. More & more every day....
Altho i dont say all these to Baby,but i hope he feels it.
He feels when i miss him & i noe Baby feels more then tat.
We have nt met for 2 days le. & im missing him till death!
Seriously fucking missing Baby! Nvr see him 1 day i gonna die le.
I wonder if i go back malaysia ... How!!
Hais!!!!
Gonna meet Baby 2moro and wednesday!!Idc!! I must meet him!
Cant wait. He's gonna "DIE"!! Hehe.
DearDiary,
On the 20thNovember,wasnt a gd day at all. Quarrelled wif parents then Baby.
Went to meet baby altho father dont allow. Eh i miss him lehh! Gt wrong marr.
Just bout 3 hours or less. Oso cant!! Fk it mans!!!!
Anyways,cos of tat,quarrelled wif Baby.
At 1st was walking home then show him attitude. Seriously dk why.
Then below my block quarrel wif him. My fking attitude caused both of us in tears!
Hais. Till today(22/11) i still feel vry bad tat i show him tat attitude.
Till today,i still cry bout wht happened! I noe no matter how many sorry i say,will nt take away the pain tat we felt tat day! Im sorry Baby.
I keep asking myself.
Why did i give him tat attitude.
Why did i do those things to him.
Why i said all those hurtful words to him!
Why! Why! Why??!!!
He forgive me. Yesh he does. & he still tinks tat i relationship getting better.
Wht a gd BF he is. But i still feel damn bad.
He has been giving in to all my pekchek-ness. & yet i did tis to him!
WHY! I love him alot. But i did tat! Isnt tat just fking shyt of me.
Why cant i just be tat girl he met 6 months ago! W/out all this fked up attitude of mine!
Cos i changed? Then why cant i change back! Everyone wants the old Michelle back!
Even me want old me back! But it seems so hard!!
Yet Baby still stand beside me no matter wht. He has been the best BF i have ever had.
Altho he did hurting stuff to me last time,i still tink he's the best.
I seriously love him. & no one can imagine the love i have for him.
Cos of him,tears can go down everyday. Cos of him,im willing to do anything & everything!
I thank Baby for whtever he did to me. Bad or good,i still thank him.
He taught me alot. He gave me alot. Giving in and giving things to me.
Nth is gonna change my love for him
I remember we singing the song"Nth's gonna change my love for you" to each other on the MRT!
Which made me almost cry!
I oso remember the words he said" Why cant i just have one peaceful day wif you!"
Those words run in my mind everyday. Ever since he said tat to me on 20112010.
Im gonna give him tat peaceful day! Not only once but alot more!
Baby brings me tears. Both good and bad tears.
Happy and sad ones! I dont blame him for giving me the sad ones.
Cos then only i learn and grow tat not all of the things in the world can give u wht u want.
Thru these tears,i love Baby. More & more every day....
Altho i dont say all these to Baby,but i hope he feels it.
He feels when i miss him & i noe Baby feels more then tat.
We have nt met for 2 days le. & im missing him till death!
Seriously fucking missing Baby! Nvr see him 1 day i gonna die le.
I wonder if i go back malaysia ... How!!
Hais!!!!
Gonna meet Baby 2moro and wednesday!!Idc!! I must meet him!
Cant wait. He's gonna "DIE"!! Hehe.
Baby,if you're reading this,
Iloveyou. I reali do.
I dont wanna lose u.
I dont wanna let u go.
U're mine!
Mine forever!!!
Laogong!! 10102010,10.10pm!
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